Part 4 of 4: Permanently Damaged Autopilot

Posted March 8th, 2010 3 commentsPosted In the examined life

Where? What? When? How? Next?
Shedding light onto the most recent frequently asked questions from my closest friends to every other person…

Being temporarily back in NYC for the last two weeks I have had to accept (again!) that I remain and will remain childishly enamored with the City, not to mention I miss the amazing people I call my friends and every nook and cranny of my neighborhood. Frankly, I don’t think I can ever “leave” NYC–it’s a lost cause; I am obsessed with the city. However,  Africa and Asia are not a phase, an escape, or motivated by a desire to “save” whatever is going on there–much work needs to be done in the United States as well.

Aristotle advised, “Where your talents meet the needs of the world, therein lies your vocation.” I curse you, Aristotle! What if you have more than one “talent” and what if that too is not up to your fullest potential…

Well, instead of Aristotle, my mother responded to my fistful of scowls at Artistotle’s spirit roaming around laughing at us from above and underground, “Good thing the world has more than enough needs.”

I have accomplished a lot in this time off even though I don’t have much to show for it right now (most of it pertaining to my three manuscripts). When I embarked on this road I did not realize the most rewarding fruit of my decision will be that I will never be on autopilot–not even by mistake! Choices have a way of making roads lead onto other roads and before you realize fifteen, twenty, thirty years have passed.  It is not about the right or wrong choice as much but being conscious of the choice. Most destructive are those choices which we make when least aware of our intentions.

I have until July to integrate a few ideas while I continue to play twister on the globe. I am eternally grateful for my friends; I am very lucky and blessed to have their unconditional support, humor, love in this process. And of course without my family (in spite the number of times my parents and I clash and there are more such times when you decide to stay at home longer than a certain period) I couldn’t even dream my dreams.

Read Part 1 of 4.

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§ 3 Responses to Part 4 of 4: Permanently Damaged Autopilot"

  • Vusi Sindane says:

    quick question; how do you know you will write 4 parts before you start?

    eish it never works for me! :(

    Thank you for this series, please keep them coming :)

  • annie says:

    @Vusi Sindane – hey how did you get the pic thingy (aka avatar?!) on here! i will never catch up with all there is to easily know! sigh.

    thanks for stopping by…
    sometimes we have an intention for how things come out and sometimes the writing takes its own life.

    in this case, it just so happened that i realized that the entire thing could be divided in 4 parts and still stand individually for myself and the reader…I didn’t expect it…

  • Lindi says:

    Beautiful, Annie. So much of this resonates. I hope the year has brought you clarity :)

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