April 1, 2012.
April fool’s day. Yes, let’s have a worldwide recognition day to reflect that we are all such fools. We know so little and therefore we have so many experts of Knowing!
I want the weather gods to say, “Just Joking!” I want to hear It is all just a hoax that it is December temperatures in April. There is no global warming heading to an ice age. “Please laugh already!” I want to hear from the cold front that lasts longer and longer each month every passing year. I don’t want historians to describe in words “what was once known as Spring”; I want future generations to be able to experience it. Somewhere.
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Tagged dreams, life, politics, relating, words, writing process
March 25th, 2012
STILL SUNDAYS
New York City can’t make up its mind whether to continue enduring pain and stay in winter or finally move forward into spring and summer.
Stillness is a peyote that shows what is real.
You can’t jump into stillness, you work your way into it and realize it is a fusion of all sorts of coming together.
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It was in Paris when James Baldwin was first able to come to grips with his explosive relationship with himself and America. Of course that is not why I went there in 2001—I have never followed in the footsteps of anyone—-this is not a boast, just a fact, just how ... read more »
Tagged art, choices, life, process of writing, questions, social media, twitter
Today doesn’t need a date, 2012.
Trying to understand how I see New York City and how an artist sees what is and is not really there.
A weekend ago I was saddened by my inability to successfully articulate to another what is it that I “saw” in New York City. It is like a fairytale that is true only if you believe it. I questioned whether the lens through which I have viewed New York City is tainted with unearned affection. Something I have just made up!
I know many people who live here because they have always lived here. There are also people who have no desire to visit other towns ... read more »
Tagged art, beauty, life, nyc, photos
March 11th.
I thought we decided, I tell myself—all of my selves: the one who likes lazy days of lounging in the hammock made of time, the self who stares at a wall too long after a dream doesn’t quite add up, the self who questions every single day: do we choose to become this thing, this “person”, who writes?—-that today we were going to just enjoy a very still Sunday without words. A drive to Philly was in order to see my best friend, am(Erica). But she will understand, I told myself, like all friends who have been a close part of my life the last two decades, if I changed my mind last ... read more »
Tagged life, questions, story
March 4, 2012
I had a dream the sky was such a fantastic blue that they were holding a contest to come up with a new name for this shade of blue.
My team was made of the people with whom I am closest and we were trying to run our ideas by one another via email, phone calls, and text messages. At some point we got so absorbed in the process that we neither cared about this new color nor making the deadline of the contest.
My sister, in coming up with a name for this new shade of blue, had designed the most unique blue cards. My friend, (am)Erica, had decided to create a ... read more »
Tagged dreams, goethe, life, stillness, sublime flux
