December 25, 2011.
on criticism, on friendships come & gone, Keats & soul-making.
New York City is asleep although I have been awake for some time.
Silence is that music where we become instruments.
I have never experienced Stillness and silence this grand in New York City as this Sunday.
This is my first Christmas holiday and New Year’s Eve in New York City despite having lived here for over a decade. Usually I have always been “home” this time of the year, whatever that has meant: sometimes Lahore, other times Johannesburg or Durban, most often a farmhouse, my parents’, in California.
Last night I experienced New York City in a whole new manner. I ... read more »
Tagged 2011, choices, keats, life, nyc, process of writing, questions, relating, sublime flux
December 18, 2011.
Herman Hesse’s Demian. “Tug on Anything at all…” A fortune-teller who could tell all but one thing.
It’s not easy to leave New York City. A stranger-friend, an Italian Ph.D. student, must return to Italy tomorrow as her yearlong fellowship is finally over. And she is not ready. I don’t think those who come to New York City for anything but an idea can ever leave that idea behind. At worst we carry that idea that is New York City with us wherever we go. At best, we return again. And again.
Love is a hard idea to give up.
What will she miss the most, I asked her? She held back ... read more »
Tagged choices, herman hesse, life, non-fiction stories, nyc, questions, relating, sublime flux
November 20, 2011.
Still Sundays.
The New York City skyline never gets old.
I am getting older; I like it.
Love too never gets old.
This month is over, this year is over, my obsession with time, truth, and love continues.
What do I want to be when I grow up? A writer? A doctor? A teacher? A lawyer? A writer? This time I get to decide how I want to be, not who based on what.
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People have recurring dreams. I don’t.
My latest obsession is putting into words this “recent” dream: I am in a field of teal colored dragonflies. They are everywhere. The field is on the edge of ... read more »
Tagged dreams, economics, life, politics, questions, relating, sublime flux, viktor frankl
September 18th
Although there is much to be written this Sunday morning, yarns of thoughts are spinning by themselves around the needle of stillness, I just want to observe and gather some more.
It has been a very full week, more eventful than my typical weeks, and although Sunday puts it together, however fragmented, I am going to need much more time for this week.
Next Sunday I will wake up earlier than I did today to feel Stillness exhale on my skin instead of my gasping for it this morning. Today I slept in Stillness and awoke to the sudden announcement that it is cold and Autumn has arrived although the colors of Fall haven’t ... read more »
Tagged carl jung, choices, dreams, life, process of writing, questions, relating, sublime flux
June 5th
Last year around this time, June 6th, I wrote:
I have never been able to articulate the stillness of a Sunday. Those quiet hours of the early morning before a city, town, or village takes a big yawn and stretches itself into your routine which may include bills, laundry, emails, phone calls, errands, groceries, etc.
These mornings are especially unique in New York because the City doesn’t sleep but she just takes naps. And the longest naps are on Sunday mornings. [...] Some mornings I simply wrap the stillness of a Sunday morning around a pen and put fragments on a paper.
I have been asked by a few people to share more ... read more »
Tagged life, questions, relating, sublime flux, words
